So I know none of you asked for this, but here it is……
I just cannot seem to get it together. My major problem is that I never have large amounts of free time. The day is filled with class, work, errands, church, studying, Kyle, and anything else that might come up. Along with no time I have no money. It’s actually a big stress for me right now. I am stretching to the max to pay for school, rent, utilities, books, groceries, and small issues like my car deciding to rebel and break. Again. Your prayers for my sanity would be much appreciated.
Anyway, I do find all of it somewhat humorous. My room here is a wreck. My room at my parent’s house is almost as bad. I went grocery shopping and caught up on emails from 11pm last night until 2am this morning. I’m finding it extremely frustrating coming home to a room I can’t walk through with my shopping items still in their bags on the floor. I have few clean clothes. I did buy laundry detergent last night! Too bad I don’t have time to do my laundry. I am booked now until 2pm on Saturday, and I’m hoping that Saturday and Sunday can be major catch-up days for me. My genius plan right now is to skip class tomorrow and get enough done to at least make it until Saturday.
I am lacking in motivation and having a hard time getting back into a schedule. I think I just remember how completely stressed out I got last semester, and I’m not ready to go back to that again. Honestly, I’m just ready to be done with school and the schedule fluctuations. I’d love to have a job that would actually allow me to pay my bills and give me the satisfaction of going to work every day. I’m completely over homework and working night shifts. I would much rather have the stress of a job, a house, and more importantly a family.
Anyway, these are just some of the things on my mind recently. I’m frustrated because I feel like there’s so much more I’d rather be doing right now. I want to enjoy the next 2 years of my life, but I’m also ready for them to be behind me so that I can continue moving forward…
Oh, and for your viewing pleasure, just so you know I’m not kidding, I took a few pictures of my room…. Hopefully I’ll have a follow-up post to this one with much-improved and more organized-looking pictures of my room.
yeah....
where do I sleep??
It would be nice to get away for awhile….
Uhhh…the OCD in me is going nuts right now.
We’re going to have to talk about this.
Relax babe…if I’ve learned anything it’s that stressing solves nothing.
Hang in there, this is making you stronger.
Love you my girlfriend.
Right now my desk at school looks like your drawer thing. It’s a pile collector and apparently where I collect my dirty dishes. No actual work has been done there all semester and I’m not sure when I will get to that part of the room to make it any better.
Since Kyle is OCD just get him to come over one day and help you clean out and organize!
On a serious note, make the most of every moment where you’re at, even the stressful times. You will get out of school and into a new chapter of your life soon. Praying for you.